value

I know a little girl who had a curl right on the middle of her forehead.
When she was good she was very, very, good
and when she was bad she was horrid.

(That about sums up my painting today)

So tired...my arms...I painted all day long and then into the night
but I am a changed painter, a better one today then yesterday as I am immersed in the language.
I am so enraptured by the growth and the feeling that everything is coming together...
Still read about climate change here
and I will be busy dreaming soon.

She who sees your sunrise eyes
wakes you from your sea of dreams
no fair, no fair
we met too late
She has taken up my fate
and I will wander the world to find
your love that will never be mine

-By the Corby

New England White Oak Tree

Conservation is getting nowhere because it is incompatible with our Abrahamic concept of land. We abuse land because we regard it as a commodity belonging to us. When we see land as a community to which we belong, we may begin to use it with love and respect. There is no other way for land to survive the impact of mechanized man, nor for us to reap from it the esthetic harvest it is capable, under science, of contributing to culture.

-Aldo Leopold -Sand County Almanac
(More books came my way from a conservationist/naturalist person who died with no family. It is an amazing gift of great field guides, illustrated works, and books like the above, which I have not yet read but really should have already. I am really pleased by the unexpected gift from someone like-minded I never knew.)

Bunny Face

5 boys, 2 girls, 2 boys have a home, mom is staying with me along with one girl who has a medical issue. Everyone else needs a home...

WE GOT IT!!
(I know I am yelling here, but we got the show!!!!)
Not until 2009, but a show none the less!
HA! I am the 3% (97% of MFA candidates are not successful)
Know why? Because I want it BAD and I will work my tail feathers off to get it.
:-) happy day.

Wish me luck my vast blog audience, as I have a very important meeting tomorrow morning. This meeting is for a show with two other artists. I hope I get it, but I am not going to get overly optimistic about it. It makes it easier to hear bad news if you set yourself up to be prepared for it. I am debating on what paintings I should bring and of course hating all of the obvious flaws I am seeing in my work. I tend to do that and feel like all of the old stuff is unfinished and garish with its big mistakes hanging out like thong underwear on a teenager. Hopefully they will be less obvious to the person I am presenting to. We shall see....

Fog comes up on the River quickly. It hangs like a dense cotton cover, hushing all sounds except for the close movement of the water. The shapes of islands, shorelines, and other boats come out at you, so much closer then you expect them to be. When you are floating alone in it, you cannot determine which direction your bow points in. You have to rely on instinct and blind faith in order to reach your destination. You can choose to sit in it and wait until it lifts, but that may not happen for hours or even days. Or you can take a risk and go forward slowly, making out the shapes that loom out of the fallen clouds and steer towards home.

Question Mark Butterfly

Hi my darlings, I have re-entered the world after painting all day. It is mostly complete and I am happy with it. I may actually go do something rather fun, like take a nature walk this evening. Learn about animals and plants near your zip code here

As he saw me so I was slowly becoming; he saw me into being.

-Mabel Dodge Luhan

data, data, data, data...
I have filled up my overused laptop with photo files and data. This is a common problem I am sure and since I do not trust the rather impermanent shelf-life of DVDs, I have purchased an external hard drive. This means I am merrily copying files, and soon will be burning DVD back-ups just because data should have a few homes. Fun-times...

Yellow Lady's Slipper or Whip-poor-will's Shoe

Regarding its favorite haunts, Mr. Baldwin says: "Its preference is for maples, beeches, and particularly butternuts, and for sloping or hilly ground, and I always look with glad suspicion at a knoll covered with ferns, cohoshes, and trilliums, expecting to see a clump of this plant among them. Its sentinel-like habit of choosing 'sightly places' leads it to venture well up on mountain sides." The long, wavy, brownish petals give the flower and alert, startled look when surprised in its lonely hiding places."

-How to Know the Wild Flowers by Mrs. William Starr Dana

The show was good, though the attendance was a bit low. Some I really would have liked to have seen were busy elsewhere, while some unexpected friends came to visit. The highlight of evening was a friend's gift of many old field guides and nature books. They had gotten the books from someone and were unsure what to do with them. So lucky little me.

Don't kiss the work...

Tundra Swan

I looked in my heart while the wild swans went over.
And what did I see I had not seen before?
Only a question less or a question more;
Nothing to match the flight of wild birds flying.
Tiresome heart, forever living and dying,
House without air, I leave you and lock your door.
Wild swans, come over the town, come over
The town again, trailing your legs and crying!

-Wild Swans by Edna St. Vincent Millay

Peregrine

After the frivolity of setting up the art show today, I am much less nervous. Everyone had an excited banter and the work looks good together. So I think everything will be just fine and I am still feeling good underneath all the external stress. I just have to trust that things are all going to be ok.

As I drove to setup the show in the city I generally regard with a veiled contempt, I saw the old K building that I used to watch as I fell asleep in my grandmother's apartment. It used to seem menacing with red lights that glowed like eyes. It's tower looked like a tin man hat giving its sinister a slightly whimsical spin. A devil that was blundering and loveable, as if it were not truly bad. I would stare at it, playing with the lights and features in my mind as I drifted off into dreams. I can still see the window frame around it and the glow of the city lights below. I can still hear my grandmother crinkling the pages of the book she was reading or the low hum of voices on the television. As I lay there I would imaging it breaking off of its foundations and walking over to my window. I wondered at what it would say, how it would bend and tip its tin man hat to me. Even all of my coldest hours within that city's sphere cannot erase such good memories, so today and tomorrow I will be called home at last. And I will call it home.

I am so very nervous about an art show I am in this week. The opening is coming up and I am tense about it. In fact the stress of this has gone right to my stomach, which it always does. So I am feeling rather ill. I hate openings, and I think I may always feel that way. It is funny that I crave having shows and feel accomplished when I get in them. I hate the process of the opening itself, where your work is on display and people mill around you. I wonder what it is that I fear? Perhaps it is the audience having a negative reaction to the work, a scoff and a rude comment. Then again is that so terrible, that I could not confront it? I am silly about this, what am I going to do when I am the only artist showing? (this will be happening soon) I will be sick for 2 weeks before then and loose 20lbs at this rate! What do you do, dear bloggers when you have to confront an uncomfortable social event? Any tips? My stomach will be eternally grateful for your advice.

Jimson Weed

In the Datura or Deadly Nightshade family-so pretty poison

And if I could see around the bend
would it change the time I spend
Wanting you?
If I could bring you a perfect rose
from all the pretty buds that grow
How could I choose?

Cause you got me dancing down
these muddy roads
with soft sand between my toes,
Feeling fine
The sunlight playing on my back,
shirt in hand,
Singing out in crazy rhyme

-Kate Wolf -Muddy Roads

Tiger Lily

Dare I say that I am actually painting a somewhat happy painting? Who am I and what have I done with the Corbyhawk? I have worked on the background of it this afternoon and intend on tackling more of it later. I feel rather good, honestly. I can't help it, I feel change coming and I am ready to run right into it despite any costs. I am almost cavalier in my need to throw out old worries and fill myself with new hopes. What a day of painting, I always feel so good when I paint. The work I did last week has really informed me and I am hitting on a new thing in my painting. Life is generally good I say, ha! Ha, gray day, mixed sky and grabbing old life. I am sliding past all these worries and just enjoying the ride today. There are words I want to scream out past the clouds to the hiding sun and laugh as the rain falls around me. I am not afraid, I double dare you.

Younger and Older

That thing you do
with your eyes
the edges crinkle and hold
a smile your mouth attempts
to deny.

I feel the warmth of you
and bask sunning
my own soul.

-By the Corbyhawk herself

Broad-billed Hummingbird

Young Gray Hawks

Last night
I dreamed I became myself
I dreamed I became a bird
I dreamed I became a dream

From Lam Thi My Da -Dedicated to a Dream (translated by Martha Collins and Linh To)

THE HAWTHORN TREE

by: Willa Cather (1873-1947)

CROSS the shimmering meadows--

Ah, when he came to me!

In the spring-time,

In the night-time,

In the starlight,

Beneath the hawthorn tree.

Up from the misty marsh-land--

Ah, when he climbed to me!

To my white bower,

To my sweet rest,

To my warm breast,

Beneath the hawthorn tree.

Ask of me what the birds sang,

High in the hawthorn tree;

What the breeze tells,

What the rose smells,

What the stars shine--

Not what he said to me!

Burned

violet

it flowered again
despite the recent death
of the old violet blossoms
they hang curled up edges
of black debris
laying waste on cushioned velvet
out of no where a burst of color
a brief interlude of hope
in each chunky blossom
burnished a purple blue
I care for it as if it were the last
such ordinary flower
as if leaf edged in gilded carat gold
because of who picked its perfect color

I recognized for the first time in my life there is a mystery in the transmission of feeling across wide space; the fact that individual essence may be poured out of one and carried on a sheet a paper faithfully to its goal, may run through the living fingers, a stream of vital energy, possibly ponderable, anyway effectual, speaking to one of what it will, and that one receives messages with some receptive organ besides the elementary ones of eye and ear. Every written word is embued with a portion of the writer's total being; the properties of the blood, bones and nerves have flowed into the electrical stream that charges the page.

-Mabel Dodge Luhan - Edge of Taos Desert

There is always a little let-down after a show. It was a good mix and the work looked nice. It is still up, hanging, waiting for the right viewer to find it. That is hope right? That a certain person will find it and your communication will vibrate in them, sending them some impression of why the work was created. Maybe it will stay with them like a melody that repeats over and over, causing them to look differently at the world, maybe for a moment. Then are you less alone as the creator, your vision is picked up and lives on. Ah, hope when I am feeling rather low tonight.

Chihuahuan Raven

Me and My Canoe

Landfall

Come with me, there. The River winds itself around the islands placed randomly along its path. They glow pink granite among the steely blue water. The water always moves, running with hidden currents that ripple the surface. Grip your paddle as we go in my red canoe. Be careful it tips easily, so try to stay in the middle. It is calm out now, and everything glows from the rain droplets. The thunderstorm was short but intense and now the air is crisper, almost like fall. It reminds me of you. Four minks swim up to us. Their dark molten brown fur shows on their little heads as they come closer. A mom and her three babies. They don't see us until they are right up to us. Mom startles and quickly turns around. She raises her tail in alarm and it sticks out of the water like a wet whip. The crow family is in the trees above us. The youngsters are constantly cawing for food. The parents silently keep about the hunt as the young follow with demanding cries. One of them has white-tipped feathers. You can see their pink mouths as they yell.
The sun is setting as we go, following the line of the islands. The cottages mostly stand empty but a few people watch us as we pass. My hair is blowing out around me and my arms are strong as I pull the paddle in a rhythm. Don't worry I will steer us. We can weave in and out of rocky shores watching the spotted sandpiper dance on the edges of the rocks. The trees and brush reach into the water. They are hiding huge water snakes and a small yellow warbler who looks rather ragged.
We turn around the longest island to meet the sunset head on. A loon stretches its wings in the sunlight and calls its lonely cry. It echoes through us as we go. I turn and spot a heron, who is waiting in perfect stillness for his next meal. Suddenly as we reach home the sun dips below the tall white pines across the river, casting its orange and pink light to the waiting clouds above.

D.H. Tree

" A bird is not finished until it can fly" -William Morris Hunt

I will be away for a few days. I have a painting in a show that opens tomorrow night and I will be traveling to get there.

Cassin's Kingbirds (immature)

I really should be working. I am taking a brief damn it's hot and the humidity is killing me break. I generally do not like making frames but it is a necessary evil. I have to get to my painting and have a great idea for my new blank canvas that is patiently waiting for me in my boiling studio. I found out I am in another show (yes I know I should not be complaining it is a GOOD problem) which has sent me into a panic mode that I am responding to with an odd melancholy lethargy. Perhaps I am about to change my work dramatically in response to what I was seeing out west. This is a good thing?? One never knows. Only I must go now and really pull myself up out of the funk I am in and get something done. I make my own self crazy, off I go after I put a picture on here...

With him, life flooded back into the room, into every corner of it, into the chairs and tables, into the bowl of wild roses, and into me, too.

Mabel Dodge Luhan -Edge of Taos Desert
(longing)

From the sunrise

I snapped this on my way to some great birding in Madera Canyon. (great minds think alike :-)

1. All right, here are the rules.

2. We have to post these rules before we give you the facts.

3. Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

4. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight
things and post these rules.

5. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged
and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re
tagged, and to read your blog.

1. Fact: I hate being tall, it implies so much in and of itself and I would rather be less visible. It is also difficult to find clothes to fit since the "ideal" female is a size 1 and has a much smaller body frame. (I am 6ft and a size 11) Men also tend to prefer smaller women.
2. Fact: I can have a sharp tongue and a wicked humor (I generally do not do this in public, but I can be really sarcastic)
3. Habit: I have the habit of spotting and taking notice of all of the living creatures around me wherever I am. (I also can note their present state of being, i.e. observe limps, etc.) (this even applies on a highway)
4. Fact: I hate housekeeping
5. Habit: I tend to repeat a point in conversation 3 times in three different ways
6. Fact: I wanted to be a biologist when I was young, but decided to be an artist so I would have something to write about when I was old.
7. Habit: I frown when I am thinking about something (I am trying to break this bad habit in order to prevent getting wrinkles which really want to show up)
8. Habit: I sometimes daydream and they can become very elaborate stories built upon over time. (A wonderful meeting diversion)

I am not going to send this out to other bloggers, sorry I am breaking the chain meme (bad, bad girl) I am pathetic enough to not really know 8 other bloggers (pitiful I know). So if you read it and you feel inclined, go with it.

Near Abiquiu

They danced effortlessly, borne by the shared rhythm. And my companions and I looked poor and outside life as we squatted on the ground, able only to watch them. The doom of our race, I thought, is to watch things. We travel around or we stay at home, but wherever we are, we are only looking at life, not living it. Looking at it and telling about it, not being it. We have even learned to make a virtue of this substitution of modes...

-Mabel Dodge Luhan -Edge of Taos Desert

Mission of St. Francis

Skull at D.H. Lawrence's ranch

I am sitting on a bed at Mabel Dodge's house. I should be conversing with the spirits of Willa Cather, D.H. Lawrence, Alfred Stieglitz, Carl Jung, and of course Georgia O'Keeffe. In this small adobe room I can see the giant wood rafters, and slide my feet over polished wood floors covered in native rugs. The walls have a funny way of holding the light and casting shadows. It is as if the light doesn't bounce off of the walls but gets sucked into them. These floors have seen so many ghosts and inspired so many artists and intellectuals. I love it here, despite myself (the one that refuses to like what so many others have liked). It is not the overdone glitz for the tourists that I admire, but the subtle creep of the light over flat surfaces, the giant brightness of the flowers against the big blue sky, and other visual feasts I can try to photograph but must save in my mind. You can see everything around you as you drive. The plains of sagebrush green on blue green marching like an abstract painting towards a blue gray sky. Photos cannot hold it, they do not see it in my eyes. So I hope those spirits rub some of their magic into me as I sleep here. What dreams will I have? I know I am waxing romantic, but it is hard to not do so in this place. So tonight I send this out to all of you, fellow creatives. So that the conversations once begun in such places does not die out in isolation. Maybe we can all carry it, sit for a late drink face to face by the adobe fireplace under the star filled sky. I can hear the wind whipping as it does through the cottonwoods, rustling them for tomorrow.
-The Corby

I am in the desert, a stone's throw from Mexico. It was in the low 100 degree range today. It is so dry that you don't sweat, it just evaporates right off of your skin. The sun blazes with a sharp intensity that burns out the colors around you. Everything seems bleached. The plants are agave, prickly pear, mesquite trees, cholla catus, and octaillo. The hummingbirds are plentiful and all different kinds appear to glow in the bright sun. Broad-billed, Anna's, Lucifer, Black-Chinned, Magnificent, Blue-throated, and Broad-tailed. They buzz as they fly past you. Their wings making distinct sounds for each species. It is an area suffering from a long drought. The rivers are threatening to dry up and leave the booming population thirsty. So they import more people and pave the desert floor. Hope you are all well, I may not be back for a bit. (no access to the internet for a few days)
-Corby

Georgia's Mountain

When I am gone
scatter me there
on my mountain of
blue perdernal
flat it stands
make no fuss
I will become wind
fingers through sagebrush
ambling up over old fence posts
bleached cedar in the sun
My rooms empty
my eyes now see all things
the cups are washed and placed away

-by Corby in tribute to a trip to the O'Keeffe house

For Stieglitz (After Equivalents)

Day 2 was much better. Art, Art and more Art. I walked until I was having difficulty lifting up my feet. So many galleries and they all began to blur together. Surface is prominent, collaged textures, simple rather introspective right on the edge of meaningless work. Cult of the idiosyncratic self is what I would say as a brief overview.

Day 1 of the trip was dreadful. The airlines decided to just start canceling flights and this created chaos, as you can imagine. Add to this a massive weather front that hit the Eastern US and you have a whole lot of stuck travelers. It is also interesting when the airlines think you are in Ohio when you are actually in Atlanta at their customer service desk. Hmmm, makes it tricky to catch a plane you are already late for, but has been mercifully delayed. Get on it and then wait for the pilots for 40 minutes. Yes it was fun times. I even managed to break my good long lens a costly problem, when my camera bag strap broke in the airport.

The Corby Hawk has flown

I will be leaving early tomorrow and have much to accomplish before then. My blogging may be a bit sparse in the near future as I will be on the road, following the path of O'Keeffe.

Life and love are life and love, a bunch of violets is a bunch of violets, and to drag in the idea of a point is to ruin everything. Live and let live, love and let love, flower and fade, and follow the natural curve, which flows on, pointless.

-D.H. Lawrence
(in honor of my trip that will be where he also once traveled)

Go and explore some romantic but lovely images of people with animals here

Bunch of Bunnies

Group of 7

I managed to hit myself in the face with a large stick. It fell on me as I was moving them. Fabulous, now I have a bruised face and eye. I am a major klutz.

Otherwise the day was relaxing, a rare thing in my world. I built an upgrade to the rabbit cage and cooked some really delicious Kansas City Barbeque Chicken and potatoes. I made my own sauce and it was supremely yummy. I also had a fire and roasted marshmellows (hence the moving large and apparently threatening sticks)

A pleasant day before the rush of packing. I am going West soon! (with a black eye no doubt (sigh)) So I will have some really cool photos soon. Until then you will have to be content with the supremely cute group of 7 (bunnies that is).

Robin with no tail

I rescued this robin off of the road. He is under veterinary care tonight, but may have to live in captivity until he can regrow some tail feathers.

Laura was leaning against the fireplace, gazing at Paul. And Paul noticed all of a sudden that she was no longer wearing dark glasses. She held them in her hand and gazed at him, her eyes swollen and moist. He realized that for quite a while she hadn't been listening to what he was saying.

He fell silent. The room became filled with a stillness, which made him through some mysterious power move closer to her. She said, "Paul, why didn't we two meet sooner? Before all the others..."

Those words spread out between them like a mist.

-Milan Kundera Immortality

I want to change, to rearrange
What is going on
I need to change, I need to play
Like a five year old

I can't detach from the past and all of the pain
I need to learn, start from scratch begin again

Throw away yesterday
Today is a brand new day
Throw away yesterday
Today is a brand new day

So I'm going to eat one hundred sweets
I don't care if I get fat
And I'm going to speak, I won't censor me
I know I can take nothing back

And I'm going to jump I will unburden
I cannot go too deep
I will not run from bad things I've done
They're things I'll try not to repeat

Throw away yesterday
Today is a brand new day
Throw away yesterday
Today is a brand new day

Welcome to
The church of what's happening now
Head straight through
It costs nothing but change

Sia -The Church of What's Happening Now

What lies underneath?

At a certain institution of learning there were the given formalities of the "crossing", the politically correct term for graduation. The administrators were giving their speeches in order to salute the student's achievements. During the endless speeches you could hear the sound of crickets in the auditorium, I mean this literally. There were crickets calling in the dimmed auditorium. The senior prank was to release them in the school. (Disclaimer: as I am current member of said "establishment" I do not condone the release of crickets in schools or any other animals for that matter....) I wish I had those kids in my class, the ones with that much rebellion and imagination. There is hope for the world.

What makes an eye beautiful? Not the eye itself, although there are intrinsic forms which we acknowledge to be beautiful. It is the regard, the soul; and, in part, what surrounds the eye. Not the "liquid look." A snail has that.

-William Morris Hunt -On Painting and Drawing

One eye

On days like today, after intolerable heat and humidity my brother and I would stand in the open garage and wait. The storm would come after changing the world to that supersaturated color. It would roll in much like today from a black sky. My grandmother would laugh at us and remark about angels bowling in heaven. We would agree and say it must be a particularly good game of bowling if the storm was bad. She would let us go run out of the garage, when the electrical part of the storm passed over. We would run with wild abandon throwing up our arms. The downpour would immediately drench us. Our feet would slap against the still hot blacktop that steamed in the rain. We laughed like maniacs and ran in and out of the garage. My grandmother would sit and smile at us. Our clothes would hang heavy on us full of water. Eventually the storm would pass and the rain would stop. My grandmother always had warm towels on hand. Ever since those days I have loved summer storms. Even when I get soaked in them.

P.S. I have gotten into an important juried show!!
I got my dad in as well. Hence my excitement :-)

just plain cute

Don't worry about saving these songs!
And if one instrument breaks,
it doesn't matter.

We have fallen into the place
where everything is music.
The strumming and the flute notes
rise into the atmosphere,
and even if the whole world's harp
should burn up, there will still be
hidden instruments playing.

So the candle flickers and goes out.
We have a piece of flint, and a spark.

This singing art is sea foam.
The graceful movements come from a pearl
somewhere on the ocean floor.

Poems reach up like spindrift and the edge
of driftwood along the beach, wanting!

They derive
from a slow and powerful root
that we can't see.

Stop the words now.
Open the window in the center of your chest,
and let the spirits fly in and out.

-Rumi -Where Everything is Music

P.S. Happy Fathers day to all fathers. I am lucky to have my own father still, who is currently on vacation fishing. (his favorite thing) I am also lucky enough to have an amazing father who fought cancer and more in his life with a stubborn will. Thanks for that dad, it gets me through all adversity when I need it I can bull through just like you.

Bacon, Number VII

From the Museum of Modern Art, the series Eight Studies for a Portrait by Francis Bacon

I spent a little time with Francis Bacon this morning.
It was a rather good time to go, the gallery was practically empty
aside from a few artists I have seen often but do not really know.
What was interesting to me about Bacon's work is not the over commented on faces, yes we know they are corrupted, disfigured and oddly animal looking. Rather it was the simple suggestion of space that he employed in many paintings. I know I am looking for this in my own work. The figure takes up the foreground and the rest fades. There is no complicated process of space. It is so simple and masterful, it does not take away from the central focus, but leads you right into it. Space often becomes little frames and areas of hue. The hue pushes back the space and in a sense the color itself then creates space, when the values are played with. How utterly simple and I am always tending to try to over complicate in my own work. So a good lesson from Francis today, and I am eager to try it out.
On my way out one of the artists I see but do not know (I am rather shy in person) commented on the show. They are so modern for 1950 don't you think? Hmmm, well I said yes of course. It was interesting how we all are looking for different things and I wanted good ole' Francis to show me space, she wanted to be reminded of the modern. Ahhhhh, today I love painting, love it and I am in my studio ready to correct a painting and give it space. Thanks Francis.

Field Sparrow

There are many birds in decline that you would never suspect.
There is a list here and you can read an article here

We are able to hear a single tone.
But we almost never (that is, without special devices) see a single color
unconnected and unrelated to other colors.
Colors present themselves in continuous flux, constantly related to
changing neighbors and changing conditions.

As a consequence, this proves for the reading of color
what Kandinsky often demanded for the reading of art:
what counts is not the what but the how.

-Interaction of Color- by Josef Albers

Ye who believe in affection that hopes, and endures, and is patient,
Ye who believe in the beauty and strength of woman's devotion,
List to the mournful tradition still sung by the pines of the forest;
List to a Tale of Love in Acadie, home of the happy.

-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow -Evangeline

The tables were wooden with plastic checkered tablecloths. I was around 12 at the time and entering that horribly awkward stage. I remember sitting and listening to the conversations around me. I was always doing that, listening to adult gossip and wondering what my own life story was going to be like. I was rather determined that my life was going to be an interesting life full of sighed upon scandal. It certainly seemed better then the alternative.

This party was in a big barn and the band was playing near hay bales. They were playing old timey music, fiddles and banjos. Lots of people were dancing. The food was excellent, my first taste of smoked salmon (a dish I still relish). I remember dancing for the first time with a partner. This was a new experience, a young woman being asked to dance. They were mostly older and it was all rather innocent. They just made it effortless for me. I loved the way that felt, a man taking the lead and pulling me along to his movements.

To this day, I have a certain feeling of joy when I hear old timey music. It always pulls me into those first moments of really feeling feminine. A certain magic that still echoes, even today as I drove home. I was listening to the now defunct band The Heartbeats and remembering those dances. It made me smile as I sang to it. In my mind I was pulled along with a hand resting just so on my back, and my body gliding across the hay strewn floor.