What a whirlwind the last few days have been, it will take a while to digest it all. Somethings were just excellent, inspiring and motivating, others were a bit heartbreaking. I am watching the sunset over Cayuga lake as I type this. The hills that slide into the lake are blues and violets cool with a sheen of white haze. The lake is glowing upwards as brightly as the sky above it, maybe even more so. I find I want to stay and go backwards to make hope come again, but it is over isn't it? Today is done and cannot be once more. I may have done things differently a million times but I guess I cannot. I will watch as the sun slinks beyond me into some other world where they are begining. I mourn its light as it leaves everything, slowly dragging itself away. What a beautiful sun it was, a dream really. I have listened and I heard it clear, but perhaps in my hearing I did not know it at all. In a world going ever forward I find I am constantly trying to look backwards.